Psalms 84 – 86

Verse 84:2 contains words than many speak, but few believe:

How I long to be there—my soul is spent,
    wanting, waiting to walk in the courts of the Eternal.
My whole being sings joyfully
    to the living God.

Face death and see if you long to go! I can say that facing death is not something that anyone wants; sure we believe it will be better on the other side but do we live that way. That is a key question we look forward to a better afterlife than our current one, but do we live that way? Do we face death bravely or in fear?

I wish I could say I saw the “other side” when I died, but I cannot. I can say the medicine that they gave me to induce a coma gave me amnesia for a few days, so I may have no memory of the event. I can say death scares me since that is it for life on earth.

Justice will come before Him,
    marking out a path, setting a way for His feet.

Justice is a key factor to God! I wonder if God would look at the justice system that exists today and sees “justice.” Is there a mockery of justice today or true justice? It seems to me that those who have money win, period. The system has been made so complex that a uneducated person cannot figure out the nuances and must spend tons of money on a lawyer to defend themselves. Having been in court tons of time, those who have the most money tend to win, so this verse gives hope to those who have unjustly lost.

Verse 86:7 is a natural response to trouble:

When times of trouble come, I will call to You
    because I know You will respond to me.

Often times we just cruise through life until trouble happens, then we pray. You need to pray through good and bad, trouble will always come. The great thing of staying connected is when God answers you will recognize it. Otherwise, God may answer your prayer of panic and you will not notice the answer since your expectations are way different from Gods.

We must focus on knowing God and being content through the good and the bad. I died and had a ton of people pray for my life. I am here today, was that prayer or just the bodies amazing ability to recover? One story stuck with me, Patty and Aimee were in  my room praying while I was in a coma and I started to respond. The nurse freaked and had them stop praying because according to the doctor I should not be out of the coma. They were able to get a rise from me while I was in a induced coma!!

My heart has been through trauma, but in less than three months I went to a Nuclear Stress Test. The doctor review my initial images asked me “why was this test ordered?” That said to me everything looked NORMAL. Was it God or the body? Considering the medical staff who sees this day in and day out call me a miracle, I choose God!!