Song of Songs 5:8 –
Make this promise, O women of Jerusalem— If you find my lover, tell him I am weak with love
In this chapter the focus is on the woman’s desire for her love. One cannot imagine the angst one has when there is separation. She expects to hear her love come soon and it’s not happening. She uses an analogy of being beaten up to illustrate the emotions she is going through while he is missing. Some claim “control” while others show its true love. Either way she is stressed that he is not with her.
In this instance it’s not clear if he is away on “business” or he split because of an argument. I can relate to this on both levels. I remember one business trip to Pasadena the hotel was next to someone who had a rooster. Well, since we had them their wakeup call was normal, but the panic the spread through my body when I was processing not being home was intense. Also, we have been in more than one “fight” where mama has left to get away from the toxic environment, which I can’t blame her. Anyway, my anger quickly turned to stress and yearning wanting to see her again.
In both instances it was like getting beat up with emotions. After my emotions settled it was like I was beaten and I was physically sore. So I can relate to her emotions here as well. One thing we need to develop, which is difficult to do, is that same desire for Jesus and God. If you have experienced His saving grace or His blessing you may be able to easily yearn for Him. But at the same time, someone who has not walked this earth for over 2000 years representing an eternal unseen God many times gets lost quickly in our day to day lives.
In this instance the passion for your love is similar to our passion for God. It’s on fire one week and simmering the next. I know it’s been that way with every person I have loved, where the “love” will remain but the intensity fluctuates. With God maintaining this passion is even more difficult since He is unseen and not always noticeable. I have learned God is always there, most of the time He is in the background and not real noticeable unless you look hard. Most of the time when I think I am alone, hindsight reveals Him so clear I have to smack myself upside the head! So do not be afraid to embrace the emotion of love and enjoy the roller coaster ride.